Negative Thinking Can Kill YOU…

Anger Stroke

As a kid, I often heard old people, while giving precautionary advice say, “Child, you gonna give somebody a stroke!”  Of course, I didn’t know what a stroke was.  When I was a young woman, my optimism used to irritate a lot of people. My brother and teen husband asked me often, “What you so damn happy about?” Like it was the ultimate sin. Yes, we were born into a damaged family system, but so what is new? Everyone in our neighborhood, kids and grownups, wished to be like the imaginary perfect family we watched on TV. Most had labor jobs, cleaned wealthy people’s homes or were active participants in illegal activities. Most were do gooders – law abiding citizens minding their own business while others studied the laws of how to get over. My Grandmother was a housekeeper. She always brought home hand-me-down expensive clothes. My favorite pastime was browsing through the Spiegel and Sears catalogs. “When I grow up, I’m going to have…” The hand-me-down clothes gave me a taste for fine wear and the catalogs illustrated the difference from substitute quality and luxurious comfort. It never occurred to me that these things were out of my reach.

Nevertheless, my neighborhood, was always packed with a lot of what Mama called “Who shot John” drama. These calamity-pack pastimes produced colorful lying, cheating, and stealing opportunities that normalized distrust and hopelessness. Hopefulness was for the naïve; those who lived in “LaLa Land.” a place, unbeknownst to those “hard knocks” practitioners.

The hard knocker know-it-alls, however, didn’t know their practices were life killing enhancers disguised as self-preservation. It didn’t reduce negative thoughts and hopeless expectations nor distant despair. It didn’t enable them to let go of things they had little or no control over, like other people’s motives for doing or saying things judged as offensive or insensitive and even intended to hurt, harm or wound the heart.

I challenge you to screen out negative and alternative reactions that impact your mental, physical, emotional well-being. Enjoy the fact you can be agile enough to rise above doubt, fear and calamities’ while strengthening your optimism muscles and attracting overcoming tools when challenges knocks at your door.

Even when Mr. Aneurysm came to visit me in 2011 trying to wrestle me down death’s throat. I won with a story to tell. I’m still happy and able to continue an adventurous journey.

I give God the credit, yes, but it would have been a different story without my participation to water down my ego and right to be outraged, annoyed and ANGRY.

Enjoy

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The Price is not limited to money especially when it satisfies instant gratification, enjoyment, or peace of mind.  The cost could trigger a new set of interruptions. What if you became a millionaire over night? Who would you be? What if you went to jail at age 18 and came out at 36? What if you got revenge after years of entertaining anger and disgust? I ask these questions because the cost is often greater than annoyance itself.   Some people carry grudges long after the perpetrator is gone and dead. The price could be giving Grandma a heart attack because she fears you might just explode from the use of drugs, or shattered dreams. The price could be endless loneliness because of the absence of trust. The cost can empty out your joy and quest for living.

Anything in your world robbing your bank of hope? I’m not suggesting you forget and forgive everything, but how much are you willing to pay to keep it fertilized and full of poisonous thoughts and feelings.Scare the hell

2019

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2018 was packed with surprising challenges.  I witnessed multiple miracles in the face of difficult hurdles designed to limber up our sometime tired brains and emotional stamina.  We made it another year armed with the ability to peer through a curtain of despair and see the bright lights of hopefulness and optimism that steady our balance.   Each morning I wake up thinking, “Well, I’m still here.  Can’t wait to see who I’m going to meet today…what I’m going to get to do today.  Where I’m going today.  I think that sense of freedom is the key that opens numerous doors to places I never dreamed existed. 

Enjoy

Job

God put theses thoughts on my heart this morning. It was about Job. One of the first things, because of Job’s faith in God’s protection and sovereignty (ruler of all things – never frustrated or at a loss). In the face of Satan’s challenge that he could cause Job to abandon his Faith, God allowed Satan to attack Job, but not his spirit.

This is the part that brought you, me, and His faithful servants. “The things I feared the most are the thing that came upon me…”. I enjoy writing my thoughts because I don’t always recall everything I hear in the night.

I believe we point Satan to our vulnerable spots through the entrance way to fear and dread. We get to say, I knew, I knew it all the time!” As though that’s a sign of knowing the unknowable.

I have to catch myself in the act of partnering with Satan. He, too has a powerful talent of influence. The good part is catching these thoughts in mid air allowing blockages of pain and suffering. That’s how we grow along our Spiritual walk.

I urge you to purposefully defeat doubt when it visits. You don’t have to offer a comfortable seat for it to lounge around on. That’s when miracles materialize.

Catch YOURSELF playing an active role in chaos making. Replace negative thoughts with hope-fill expectancies.

If Job did, so do you. Speak an authentic positive word to someone today. Hear it when it returns to you.

If you are in pain or spooked by dread, ask God to help you hear His directions. Learn the lessons your current state is teaching. Stop beating yourself up so much. Breath as you let go as you are able.

Enjoy the journey even when it is scary sometimes.

What’s In Your Word Bank?

I like reading your posts updating your latest challenge and the verbs you use to describe them.  Some are laced with dread or remorse.  Some have deep insight packed with resolve, strength, and overwhelming courage.  Much reveal the method of choice used to navigate when life feels out of control or when you are feeling blessed and exceed your expectations.  I have all these synonyms in my bank of words.  “Gratitude” is my favorite.   Grateful for disappointments and surprise visitors who come to my pity parties.  Grateful for absent onlookers at celebrations of accomplishments.  Grateful for mental and emotional agility when I’m happy or gloomy.  We are not always untouchable or invincible. But I am grateful when my wake-up clock alarms me “its time to go or I have plenty of time to stay awhile.  What’s in your bank of words?

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Hot Oven Effort

I noticed in most testimonies I hear in churches, rehab facilities, or support group meetings, especially when some form of addictive behavior is reigns, the speaker describes his/her out of control survival experience. Ingredients include levels of pain, anxiety, remorse, anger, aloneness, fear, etc until the point of a surrendering breakthrough.

I thought about what happens in an oven turned up to a radiant intense level of 425 to broil degrees.

The ingredients undergoes a complex process of chemical and physical reactions which transform the dish from goo into light, fluffy delightfulness like a cake or converts raw meat, poultry, or seafood into editable nourishing substances.

Disappointment at 250 degrees could turn up the heat to broiling anger causing mental, physical, emotional or even spiritual burnout. Resistance sprinkled with fear of unknown and vivid negative imagination can convert to surrender moving onto God’s plan. The secret is the hot heat is part of the process

I’m learning how to surrender my ego driven will earlier. Change is becoming less intense and scary. Favorable outcomes are more frequent and joyful.

That’s not to say This awareness exempts me from terror like boogiemen/women/situations, but they appear less frequently for shorter periods of time.

Just thinking out loud…

What do I do now, God said Yes???

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Are you Prepared

What if God answered all your prayers when and how you wanted, would you be ready?  I grew up hearing God would make a way out of no way, what does that mean in real time?  But when nothing seems to be happening, I heard He may not come when you want Him, but He’s always on time. Usually, prayers, especially the ones dripping with urgency means “Now,” do it now Lord…  Over the years, my insights have been intensified by threats of inconveniencing illnesses.  When I underwent a brain aneurysm in 2011, even though I didn’t know what was happening at the time, my prayer was Not now Lord, I’m too busy…besides, I don’t believe in getting sick.  It came anyway, I didn’t die, in fact, my brain seems more positively observant and responsive after dumping out mounds of negative assessments of reality.  After nearly fifty years in the world of work, I was entering the world of retirement armed with a mental blank sheet of purpose.  It occurred to me our prayers to God might be missing some important requests, like when Jesus asked for the removal of “this cup” (death at the cross or my ego) and cancelled out the prayer with, Your will be done (something greater than my fear driven imagination of loss).

If God answered your prayer according to your specifications, what would it be like?  What would you do next?  I see people be visibly grateful for answered prayer, but only until the next appearance of struggle mentally, financially, emotionally, or spiritually.  Personally, I was grateful my mind was working well until the grip of fear surfaced at my annual physical check-up and my imagination said, Uh Oh, this is the big one, they are going to find something for me to be worried about. Where had my faith-driven resolve gone?

I wonder about all the God-praying people asking for physical and mental deliverance; financial hope; ceasefire peace for family, friends and perceived foe; self-acceptance and love.  Are you prepared if God says Okay? Will you be able adapt with the reduction of pressure and tension or will new pressures arise and are you equipped to surrender old fear-base anticipations?  I’m thinking of lottery winners who wind up filing for bankruptcy, fearing the unknown dynamics of change, or even the arrival of new anxieties without the familiar fight.  I’m not a pessimist, but I have learned resolutions require readjustments.